Sorry have not wrote anything for a long time.. Dam computer broke. Trying to get it fixed seems to be like building a bridge from Cebu to Bohol.. Never thought such a small thing could turn into a six month process. Worst part is, I have paid for it to be fixed three times now, and still comes back with same problem.. Maybe plugging it up and checking would be a good idea, before they send it back.. Maybe that's to much to ask.... ha ha ha ha...
Anyways, will not write much,, just talk a little about being a foreigner living here now for going on 9 years.. Often I ask myself, should I stay, or should I go.. Of course I have my wife here, and would not want to leave her.. But even the wife and business all can be taken care of.. I can take my wife back to the states, and of course just close down the business.. Then the issue of my wife's two Filipino sons also come into play.. So putting all the personal things aside, do i want to stay, or is it time for me to go.. Well, honestly I answer that question differently every day.. Some days I just want to forget it and go back to the states.. Then they are some days, I think I will be ok, and just keep going. I have found myself more and more , the longer i stay, answering the question,, I want to go back.. I do not know if other expats experience that. I just wonder to myself what will the next few years bring.. Will it get more and more days that i want to go back ??
The times i think i want to go back to the states, i wonder what i will do.. My construction company was closed when i left over 9 years ago.. All my contacts are gone, i sold all my equipment.. Lost my ass ( lot of money ) here in PI. So could not start it again.. Then if i did start it, have to build back up again.. Just to much.. Could work for someone, but at my age and the economy, that sounds like a long shot also.. It would be like starting over again.. Plus the fact that from what I read and hear about the USA, its sucks there about as much as here.. So what to do...
Then I think of staying here, and putting up with the things, that make me want to pull my hair out.. And by the way expats.. When we say we can learn to live with things.. Well they may be some things that we can learn to live with.. But they are things that no matter how much we try, they still just piss us off to no end.. ha ha ha ha.. I have learned to deal with most, and actually do pretty well.. Just seems i find myself thinking more of leaving.. Maybe just a phase we all go through. Maybe just mid life crisis.. Maybe i buy a sports car and things will be ok.. lol ha ha ha..
Well as for now, I still have no plans to leave.. So will just keep hanging on.. If i did go back to the states, probably would not be there six months, until i wanted to come back.. So better just stay...
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